It has always been my nature to question things, be it the way the sun looks, or even why the sky is blue. It has only come to my attention in the time that has passed that I really know nothing. We all live in a world built on false hope and idle gods. What if things just stopped, you know without warning without reason. What if one day you just woke up and the world would have just stopped being what it is? Most of you will never be able to answer this question, but not because you don’t know things or you can’t imagine a world that no longer was as it is now. In fact you can imagine it very clearly we all can. I once believed myself to be this cold heartless monster, not because I wanted to, or I thought it was cool. Rather I thought this because I never knew anything else many people have lived a life or pain and suffering. Ones pain is not worse than others, but rather different for many reasons. After trying so hard to close people out someone once said to me, “You act as if human feelings are worthless but yet you care and I know you care because I got to you.” Now back when I first heard this. My first and foremost action was to put up a wall because, well because I didn’t understand it. I thought it would mean we were playing a game I didn’t know the rules to and I had lost. I have had a great deal many friends over my life, sadly none of them have really been loyal to the level I feel a friend should. I had friends that used me for a ride because they were to low in life to get a car. I had friends that simply pretend to be my friend for they had nothing better to do. Then I had friends that I would help out of the pits of hell that in return would rather try to double money on something they got from me by selling it back to me. I don’t harbor ill will to this people any longer, what I have come to in fact realize is that one day I’m going to change the world. This is not something I say because I think I’m badass or because I think I’m “some super intelligent badass that can beat anything or anyone.” I say this here and now because I’m not the villain of the story, because I’m not the one that is lost, but because I’m the one willing to stand up for what I believe in and speak the truth to people even if it cost me everything. To you who I have known and not been a good friend to I must apologize for it was never my intent to be such, perhaps if I trusted people I would have been a friend. Perhaps I would have never made some of the comments I did, or perhaps I am who I am and will never change. As you read this I hope you one day to find the strength and courage to stand up in front of people and say, “on this day I will make the promise to change the world one day!” If for no other reason do it for the people you leave in your wake of life, do it for your children, and your children’s children do it for all the people to weak to do it on their own. In closing I would like to say world you may have the upper hand, and you may hold on the cards but one thing you do not have and will never have is my spirit!

P.S. I believe in life without fear live your life to the best you can.